Yesterday I found out that my grandpa had a heartattack, I was shattered. Thankgod he is stable at the moment and it was only mild, but I’m still so scared.
Sorry I havent posted my intake, but because we went to the hospital, I didnt exercise and I ate jasmine (white rice) for dinner cos we went to my grandmas to eat. And I was really upset so I ate some dark chocolate tim tams after, but I don’t really care, I was craving it; the only thing I care about, is that my grandpa is okay
I wanna be EVERYTHING. I wanna be a runner, a CrossFitter, a weightlifter, I wanna do yoga and pilates like it's no one's fucking business, I wanna box, and surf, play soccer, and volleyball, and basketball, hockey, lacrosse, track, water polo, swimming, rugby, mother fucking tackle-you-to-the-ground football, tennis, baseball and softball, pitch 100 mph, I wanna rock climb real fucking rocks, and swim across the whole Pacific Ocean, I wanna train like nothing in the world has ever mattered so much, I want sweat to pour down my face, down my whole entire body, I wanna kick you in the ass, kick everyone in the ass, kick myself in the ass and push as hard as I can and never ever fucking stop until I get to the one place that I crave so badly it hurts and FINALLY UNLEASH MY INNER BEAST.